| Wednesday, December 8, 2010: 1AM |
[Saturday
December 18th, 2010 at 9:54pm] |
[Ollie]
What are we?
[/Ollie]
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| Thursday, September 23, 2010: 12PM |
[Thursday
September 23rd, 2010 at 3:37pm] |
[Ollie]
So...
I'm going to hang out after school and watch you practice. You're mine after that, though. Okay?
[/Ollie]
[private: readable by Alan]
I've forgiven him. I know it's stupid, but I know it's the right decision.
As much as it hurt to see them together, it hurts more when I think about never forgiving him.... never talking to him... never hearing that he thinks my blush is sexy... never seeing his smirk...
I haven't forgotten. I think about it a lot, actually. It's hard to trust him. I've forgiven him, though. I had to. I miss him far too much to keep pushing him away.
People make mistakes. I choose to believe this was a mistake. I choose to believe that he cares for me as much as I care for him. It's not easy, but it's easier than losing him.
Alan, I know we've made different decisions. I don't blame you for pushing her out of your life forever. If you need to talk, though, you know where to find me. I'm always here. Even if you just want to get lost in a bottle of vodka. Okay?
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I'm starving. I want fries and pizza and cream soda.
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| Tuesday, September 14, 2010: 3PM |
[Wednesday
September 15th, 2010 at 12:09am] |
[Ollie]
I miss you. What are you doing after practice?
[/Ollie]
How is it only Tuesday? I'm ready for the weekend!
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| Tuesday, September 7, 2010: 8:30PM |
[Wednesday
September 8th, 2010 at 1:20am] |
[private: readable by Alan]
I want to forgive him. I want to believe that he wants me. If that was true, though, why was he making out with her? I was like... twenty feet away. I was right there. If he wanted me, he could've had me.
I told him that I forgive him. I don't know if I do. I mean... I do, but...
He wanted to kiss me. I wanted to kiss him, too. I didn't, though. I told him that we weren't together. He wants to prove that he only wants me. I asked him how. He said I could make out with anyone I wanted and that no matter who I kissed he would be with me. I can't do that.
Why do I still like him? Why didn't I tell him to go screw himself or something? I'm too nice.
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Mmmm. Pizza and beer... root beer, that is. I love my brother.
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| Monday, September 5, 2010: 11AM |
[Sunday
September 5th, 2010 at 11:27pm] |
[private]
I just... I don't know what to say.
This weekend sucked. Ollie and I were having a great time. At least, I thought we were. I don't even know, now.
I caught him kissing Becca. Their hands were not in... friendly places. Well, they were being exceptionally friendly, that's the problem. I probably should've said that they weren't in platonic places.
I'm just so... hurt. I thought we were... if I had known we weren't I definitely wouldn't have let him do the things I've let him do. I thought he really liked me. Like... I really like him. A lot. I thought I was...
I don't know. I'm just so glad to be home. I wish I didn't have to see him tomorrow... or her. I thought she was my friend. This isn't fair.
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I'm going to bed. I really don't want to go to school tomorrow.
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| Thursday, April 22, 2010: 1PM |
[Thursday
April 22nd, 2010 at 12:45pm] |
[private: readable by female friends]
So... we kissed. It was a really, really good kiss.
I get butterflies in my stomach every time I think about him.
He's... I don't know. We're not going out. He holds my hand a lot, though.
I'm not so sure Becca is cool with this. Addie says they're just friends, but I'm pretty sure she rolled her eyes when she saw us holding hands this morning. I feel like I'm being a bad friend or something. Not that we're super close. We're not.
Besides... isn't she seeing Alan? People are saying... well, they're saying a lot.
[/private]
So looking forward to this weekend! Is it Friday, yet?
I know I just ate lunch, but I'm hungry.
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| Tuesday, April 13, 2010: 8PM EST |
[Tuesday
April 13th, 2010 at 8:27pm] |
[private: readable by female friends]
I have been spending a lot of time with Ollie Roslinn. I know that's not really news, but… it feels like news! Not that I know why it feels like news. I think I have a crush on him.
He keeps trying to kiss me. I haven't really let me kiss him, though. I keep turning my head. I don't know why. I just… I don't want him to get the wrong impression, you know? Besides… I'm pretty sure he and Becca are together. Aren't they? They act like they're ogether… sometimes. I don't know. They're really hard to follow.
I think I have a crush on him. Does that make me a bad friend... to Becca, I mean.
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My older brother ate all of the Pop-Tarts. I don't know how he managed it, but he ate all of the Pop-Tarts. I need Pop-Tarts.
In other news, is it Friday, yet? I'm ready for the weekend!
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